So I started typing up this big apology post for why I haven't posted in so long and then I remembered. This blog isn't popular enough to require an explination for my absence. So screw it. I got bored and less depress and took a break. Then I forgot about this place and moved on with my life and now I remember how much I loved to write, no matter how moody my compositions are.

I was looking over my page views and I was actually excited that so many people have seen this blog. Even if they didn't stay for more than 2 seconds, they got here.

So, I am trying to decide what to do with this blog. I was thinking of picking it back up but I was also thinking of starting a new one that reflected my almost 3 years experience in the "adult entertainment" industry. So if anyone still visits here leave a comment and let me know what you think the fate of this blog should be.

-G

Love?

The love an animal gives is so forgiving, so fresh, so PURE. Why is it that animals only give such pure love? They will stand by a master who hits them regularily, and will even be happy to see them. Such love is the only kind of love that can make people truly change, and make the world better. Why can't we just open our arms and hug those who hurt us? Why can't we just love?

Probably because for it to succeed EVERYONE to do this all at once. If only, if only.

Failure is only a mindset, and those are temporary at best.

Failure is only what you see yourself as. People can only try and control you. It may seem that they succeed, but they never truly do. Your mind is no one else's but yours. Remember that. Stay strong. Just be.

Scream from Within

A scream in the night
One of pain
One of fear
One that pleads to be helped
Make it stop

The screaming never stops

From a corner
From around the bend
From within

Hidden Storm

Caught in the storm
Never seeming to end
Wanting and end for it
Will it ever come?
I don’t think so

This storm within a brain
A tortured brain
Tortured by itself and
A painful past

Where I'm From

I am from water,
I am from good food, and Italian aromas
I am from the red clay.
From cats and dogs
I am from the pages of a book,
From history and celebrity

I am from tomato sauce and spaghetti,
From tales long and old
I am from Godfather and Scarface,
From blankets and sewing
I am from a war and an attack,
A change and advancement,
As well as old things

I am from books,
Pages leafed so many times the edges fall off,
From so many stories I can tell you
I am from troubled times,
New age advances,
And a feeling of hopelessness

Voices In My Head

Those voices in my head
That is what everyone calls them
I hate them
They tell me to do mean things
I will not listen to them
I will not
I will not give in
I can’t
The horrible things that they want me to do
I can’t stand it
And when I don’t listen
They torture me
They show me the things that I could do
I can't take those visions
They hurt me
I can’t hurt the ones that I love
I will not hurt the ones that I love

Story Of A Teen Girl

I saw her.
She was looking down.
Her face was obscured by her jet black hair that was flapping in the wind, and the high collar of her red knitted sweater. She was looking down at her hands which were folded at her abdomen. Her thumb was making circles on her lower stomach. For an instant I was able to see her mouth. Her lips were formed into a soft, loving, but small smile. Then I knew. What I had just witnessed was motherly love at it’s earliest and most tender moment.

Cool New Singer I Found!

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewProfile&friendID=63019447
This is the myspace page for The Leano, a british singer. His songs are amazing! I wrote up lyrics for his first song, Smile.

The Leano
Smile

Intro (talking):
This is dedicated,
To all the smiley people in the world.
So whatever age, creed, color
I want every single person to raise a smile
(faint laughing)
It’s simple
And it goes…

Verse 1:
Forget the screw face
Here’s a new face
Tie the corners of your lips to your ears with a shoe lace

Let me see the white or yellow of your teeth shine
Or work out for the mighty muscles on your cheek line
Stretching back the seam like you had a face lift
A golden opportunity
There’s no need to waste it
A chance
To ease the ties from your forehead
Even the stresses of the world
outside on your doorstep
Are prized surprise as your lips will rise
To make an eclipse
One between the dips of your eyes
The strangest surprise will occur in your neighbor
Vibe travels like illness in a shop
More addictive than any drug sold on the corner
Internationally supplied
Across all borders
What was set you to see
What was set to you new own
Is one in the same thing but the method is known

It goes

Chorus:
Smile
Push your cheeks back
Do what I do
Smile
Let your teeth shine
It’s good for you
Smile
For the vibe grow quicker in this room
And we’ll keep on smiling ‘till the love consumes
(2x)

2,3, and

Verse 2:
Smile
Let the fabric of your face gain creases
Turn a frown upside down through the rumble of the speakers
I came
To bring a yoga lesson for your features
Cheeks grow taunt like the freshest of peaches
Smile
Let the windows of your soul stand ajar
Are a band-aid for the wounds and untreated scars
If you’re afraid
Listen close you are bound to laugh
‘Till “Ding!” between your lips a showbiz spark
Smile
The universal signal for survival
Rich or broke,
The light for the darkness
The prize for an eye is when life is a heart stress
Lips prize apart
Creating the sparkles
Let the worries of the world melt away
Bring the glory to the world in your personal way
Smile
Let it grow from the center of your soul
We’re one in the same
Please let it be known

It goes

Chorus:
Smile
Push your cheeks back
Do what I do
Smile
Let your teeth shine
It’s good for you
Smile
For the vibe grow quicker in this room
And we’ll keep on smiling ‘till the love consumes
(2x)

It goes
Smile
It goes smile
It goes smile yes
It goes smile

Suicide

Pills, pills
So many pills
All colors
Like skittles
The wrong pills
No!
Fall
Call
9
1
1
Go
Emergency
Crying, worrying
Safe
Sigh
Sadness
Why?