You Dare To Judge Me?

People seem to think it wierd that I dress in almost all black and still have an upbeat additude most of the time.

I think that categorizing how people should act, based off of their clothes is ludacris!

I wear black.

So what?

I like the feeling of the darkness, and the things in it attract me.

That doesnt mean that I have to go around moaning my sorrows, or that I blog because I want pity.

NO!

I do things because I like to!

I strted this blog to vent my feelings, no matter what they were.

I am not here to be popular.

Yea, people reading my writings makes me happy.

But that is not the reason of my posts.

The reason I post is for ME and ME only!

Do not be conceted.

I like to wear black, and I am happy about that.

Get over it.

I am not a clone.

I am not another barbie, or just another emo or goth chick.

The only way to describe the way I am is my name.

I am Gabrielle!

I Want To Be Happy But That Seems To Be The Hardest Thing To Do Right Now

Right now there are many things I want.

But mostly I want to be happy.

But happiness seems to be the most evasive thing for me lately.

I feel like I am using someone to get over another.....but right now I just can't love someone, like

I love(d) him

I can fool around and try to drown him out

but he took a piece of me and kept it

And I keep remembering the feeling of what it felt like to have a whole heart.

Now it is just broken

just in pieces

Just there.It hurts

But all I need is time

I will not use this person, meaning I will not leave them after feel better.

But they must know that I am "using" them as a distraction so I don't cry night and day

I hope they understand and still care the way they do

but if they don't I'll understand

because I know I am an awful person

and really messed up right now.