My Day, And Some Of My Life

I had a great day today. Me and my boyfriend had a great time being together. Just us being together makes us feel great. We make each others days. Tomorrow we are going to have a movie marathon of sorts. It is going to be cool! He got his new sterio system in today! It really was fun. We were driving home blasting Rob Zombie all over the place! It was so much fun!

Sometimes me and him don't have a good day but then we talk to each other, and we feel so much better. We have that kind of effect on each other. I love him. I really do. I love spending time with him and see the amazing smile that lights up his face when I do somethin stupid. But most of all I love the look he gives me when we are just sitting side by side and I glance at him and try my hardest to tell him how much I love him without words, and I start to cry with that overwhelming emotion. And he gets a look on his face that talls me that ne matter what I do or say, he will still love me and want to protect me untill the end.

I care for him so deeply. His family treats me as one of their own.

I also love the fact that he is just as mentally messed up as I am. It makes me hoot with laughter when I think about all of the completely insane things that we do together. We can also confide in each other when we had a bad illusion, waking nightmare, nightmare, or fear. But we also confide our dreams, and hopes in each other. That is a quality I love. I also love that no matter how many little tiffs we may have we come out loving each other the same, if not even more.

I love him, and that is really all their is to say.

How Much He Means To Me

He should be calling me soon. I can't wait. I love him so much. Sometimes it actually hurts me. There is this deep aching feeling in my chest when I talk to him. Or even when I am just thinking about him. I have a need for him now. He makes me whole, he makes me feel good about myself; even when I don't want to. He makes me laugh when I'm angry, etc. He isthe only person who I know that can do this at all, let alone to me. I love him, and I mean that more than I ever have in my entire life. I could never live without him, let alone tryin the first place. He makes my skin turn to fire and my heart beat along to a fast rythim I love him so much. I wish that I didn't have so many problems, then I would be able to talk to him directly, and I wouldn't feel so worried and weird. I love him, I could never say it enough. I don't ever WANT to say it enough. I am happy where I am and I never want that to change. I love him. That is all I can say. Those three pathetic, often missunderstood, or missused words are the only thing that I have to expess myself. I think that it is a major understatement, but any more powerful words, illude me. I love him.That is what I am limited to. But I think that untill I, or someone else, invents a better word or phrase, I will be limited to those three limp words. But I mean them with all of my heart.

Love

Love is such a wonderful, strange, and beautiful thing. It winds like a road made of shoelaces, twisting and turning, and even looping over its self sometimes. But we love to travel it because it gives us a sense of being needed or wanted. We can screw up because we seem to lose all ability of reason. But if the person truly loves you back then you are just called silly and that is the end of it. I am in love, I have fallen in love so many times, but always for the same person and I fall harder and harder every time. But I am not sad or upset that this person can create this amazing feeling in my chest, in fact I am ecstatic that someone can have such an amazing effect on me. We are in love, simple as that. We are so much in love that even a second spent hugging each other feels like the best thing in the world. Just listening to music and swaying with it in his room, our arms and bodies entangles so much, each trying to hold on the other just a little bit harder, that we end up tripping over each other and almost falling, laughing the entire time. Laying on the couch stealing sweet kisses while our parents aren’t looking, boldly looking into each others eyes trying to tell the other with out words how much one means to the other.

Love, Again!

Love is such a hard thing.

It is hard to get.

Hard to keep.

Hard to find.

Hard to know if it is true.

Hard to feel.

Hard to know if you even have it.

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I would like to think that I know that what I have is the best it can get.And it is definitly the best I have had in my life.But I believe that love for life is the love you are satisfied with and that you never want to try and find something better, because you truly don't think that there is anything better.That is the answer that I am trying to find right now.I know that I am the happiest I have ever been.But I do know that there may be something better out there.But I can't see what.So I have made my descion, I never want to try and find something better.Because I hanestly don't think that there is something like that.I love him.And I want to stay like that always.

New Love May Spout Even In Complete Heartbreak

After what seems like forever I have finally moved on from my ex-boyfriend.

I am not trying to say that I don't like him anymore, no!

I still like him, I just like him as a friend now.

My anger towards him has completely subsided.

I think I might care for someone else though.

I am not dating him now or any time in the near future, my heart won't let me just yet.

But in time, if I still feel the same, I may be with him one day.

He seems to understand me better than anyone else so far, he understand what he can't do and that I may hurt him.

But he doesn't seem to care, he only seems to care about being with me,

in any way possible.

Even if that means that I never date him.

That means more than anything to me.

He cares.

I need someone like that.

He also tells me when he notices something nice about me at random times.

That flatters me, I like it.

I like being told that my eyes are beautiful,

that my shape is amazing

that I have a beautiful body

that I am kind

and almost goddess like

I cry when I hear beautiful words like that directed at me.

I don't believe him at first, but the more he says it, and the more other people say it the more I believe it.

I am starting to believe that I may actually be beautiful.

This is an amazing feeling, it is hard to get me to feel this way, even after the conversation is over.

I always feel pretty when I am with someone who truly cares about me.

But I have never felt beautiful when I am by myself after a conversation has ended.

But I do now!

I feel like I should be wearing a white cotton dress for some reason..

Oh, well! I just am happy right now, stressed, but happy.

Note:

I had a comment on my "How Dare You Judge Me?" blog and it said that, "I don't judge you...the difference is you choose to show emotion...while i and many others keep bottled up. From my eyes you should be judging me. Have a great night" and this just caught me off guard.

I believe that we, as humans, judge.

Whether unconsciously or not, we judge, we label.

It only gets bad, though, when we let that effect how we treat people.

I don't let my judgement effect how I treat people, that is what I was trying to get at.

And telling me I should be judging you?

That is absurd and something I would never do!

I Want To Be Happy But That Seems To Be The Hardest Thing To Do Right Now

Right now there are many things I want.

But mostly I want to be happy.

But happiness seems to be the most evasive thing for me lately.

I feel like I am using someone to get over another.....but right now I just can't love someone, like

I love(d) him

I can fool around and try to drown him out

but he took a piece of me and kept it

And I keep remembering the feeling of what it felt like to have a whole heart.

Now it is just broken

just in pieces

Just there.It hurts

But all I need is time

I will not use this person, meaning I will not leave them after feel better.

But they must know that I am "using" them as a distraction so I don't cry night and day

I hope they understand and still care the way they do

but if they don't I'll understand

because I know I am an awful person

and really messed up right now.

My Thougts On Fall

I love this time of year.

Fall. The smells, the colors the sights, the nights, the fires, the pumkins, everything.

Fall comes second only to Winter in my eyes.

But I love the silence at night, no chirping crickets, no heat.

I love the smell of perfectly ripe apples and cinnamon, the sharpness of cilled cider, and the smell of pumkin guts on carving days.

I love the keleidaskope of colors that are created within the limbs of trees.

I love to hug a dear one close in the chill wind, and seeing them laugh with their cheeks numb and red makes me happy.

I feel creative in the fall, I feel safe in the fall.

I feel loved, and warm in the fall.

I feel free in the fall.

But soon winter will come and I will be sad that autumn is leaving but I will be glad of the sharp cold, and silence that winter brings.

Love Quotes

I feel the need to post something not necessarily mine. I want to show you some of my favorite love quotes. But please keep in mind that only the ones I have said so are mine.

Love is a canvas furnished by Nature and embroidered by imagination.
-Voltaire

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Two souls and one thought, two hearts and one pulse.
-Halen

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A girl asked a guy if she was pretty, he said "No". She asked him if he wanted her, he said "No". She asked him if she left would he cry, he said "No". She turned to leave. He grabbed her arm and said "You're not pretty; you're beautiful. And I don't want you; I need you. And I wouldn't cry if you left; I would die."

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Love isn't finding a perfect person, it's seeing an imperfect person perfectly.

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True love is, when everything in the world is going wrong, all you have to do is look at that special person and, suddenly, everything in the world is right again.

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Promise to love me, not forever because forever is too short. But promise to love me each and every day of our lives.

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You know a guy loves you when he says"I love you...!" in a room full of teenage guys.

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When I tell you I love you I don't say it out of habit or to start a conversation. I say it to remind you that you're the best thing that has ever happened to me.

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I Love you not because of what you can give me, but because how my heart warms up whenever I am near you.

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For you see, each day, I love you more.Today more than yesterday, and less than tomorrow.
I don't just love you because, I love you more than "I love you" can say.

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If I had a star for every time you brighten my day, I would have the entire sky.

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If you love me as I love you,nothing but death can part us two.

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I don't fear insects or spiders. At great heights, I jump off, smiling. In the face of death I wink. But, when I look into your eyes, I'm in fear of how much I love you.

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I love when you look at me, because I know for a second I crossed your mind

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I've fallen in love many times...always with you.

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If you love someone, do not put their name in a heart because hearts can be broken, instead put their name in a circle, because circles go on forever.

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Anyone can be passionate, but it takes real lovers to be silly.

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When you love someone, you pick up the little things and magically turn them into something special.

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He handed her 12 roses, 11 real and 1 fake, and said, "I'll love u till the last one dies."

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The test of love is not when we are together. It comes when we are not together and realize that despite the distance, love is still there.

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No road is far if it leads to you.

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If dreaming is the only way to be with you,then I'll never open my eyes.

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I gave you a piece of paper with 'n ss!w !' written on it.It didn't meant anything to you, until you turned it upside-down.

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I'm in love with everything about you...the way you smile and the way you laugh. But most of all the way you make me smile and the way you make me laugh.

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I love my name- just because of how you say it.

I love the way you stare at me when you think I'm not looking.

I love the way you lean in close whenever I tell you something,even though we both know you heard me.

I love the sweet things you say to me, even when I'm screaming at you.

I love how you love me- and aren't afraid to show it.

I love how you make me want to be a better person than I ever thought I could be.

But mostly, I love you.

All the good things, all the bad, all the mistakes, all the surprises, all the imperfections, all of it...just because they're yours.

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If I had to choose between loving you and breathing. I would use my last breath to tell you

I LOVE YOU.

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I'm looking for a guy who will kiss me just before the traffic light turns green.

Who closes his eyes when he hugs me.

Who will patiently wait for me after class.

Who smells my hair every chance he gets.

Who will wipe my sweat with his hanky.

Who will sing my favorite song even if he can't carry a tune.

Who will let me rest over his shoulder.

Who will let me sleep on his lap, and will give me the 1st and last bite of his burger.

Who will squeeze my hand tighter when I squeeze his.

Who will make me feel special when everybody tries to put me down.

Who will love me for who I am.

Who will protect me when danger comes my way.

Who will cry when I leave him.

Someone who occupies my dream every night. When I find him I will never let him go.

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I cried last night. I was imagining my life without you. -Gabby(me)

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You know you are in love when you see the world in her eyes, and her eyes everywhere in the world.

- David Levesque -

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Love

Love, what a sweet word.
I love to say it in place of a "farewell" or "see you later". We all have said it once in our lifetime and meant it. Whether it is about those amazing yellow pumps, or to our lovers. What does it really mean?

The meaning seems to change with the context it is used in."I love you" can mean you truly love this person and wish to spend the rest of your life with them, it can also mean "I love you as a friend" but us as a people are much to lazy to bother ourselves with that "lengthy" explanation, on that note it can be used with enormous amounts of sarcasm and in that case you don't really mean that at all, you can also say it with a laugh that means "you are silly, but I like that" but yet again we have no patience nor time to fully explain our true meaning behind those three powerful words. We simply leave free reign to whom we are saying this to or about, to interpret it how they will.
~You may be thinking right now that I am being a "wise ass" but I assure you that my intelligent talk is not in anyway demeaning to your usual typing style, I just simply wish to convey my interest on the subject discussed above in the most intelligent and correct way possible.~

Back to the subject at hand. Love, we use it all the time, it leaves us, we fall into it, it breaks us and heals us. Why do we love it?(pun intended) Because it makes us feel beautiful, special, real, amazing, high, super, or for lack of a better word, loved. Our attraction to it is unsatisfiable, to some people Valentines Day, the day of love itself, is nothing compared to every moment spent with their love.

I know this to be quite true. Our "need" for love drives us to do something, anything.While we are in love we can create inspiring art, song, dance, poetry, or chase something usually out of our reach, and it can make us believe in ourselves. Why do feel like this when we are in love? Because technically it releases a hormone in our brain that makes us feel almost "high", but mostly it is the fact that we feel like we have a place in this world. That suddenly everything seems to make just a little more sense, and the sad or bad things we used to dwell upon suddenly disappear.
I love being in love. I love telling people I am in love. I love telling people I am loved. I am here. I am important to some one. Someone would miss me if I were to leave, and it makes me want to stay here just a little but longer. Waste just a little more for them, just to try to convey your truest and deepest of feelings to them, even if only a little bit.

My Thoughts on Love

Love is such a wonderful, strange, and beautiful thing. It winds like a road made of shoelaces, twisting and turning, and even looping over its self sometimes. But we love to travel it because it gives us a sense of being needed or wanted. We can screw up because we seem to lose all ability of reason. But if the person truly loves you back then you are just called "silly" and that is the end of it.
I am in love, I have fallen in love so many times, but always for the same person, and I fall harder and harder every time. But I am not sad or upset that this person can create this amazing feeling in my chest, in fact I am ecstatic that someone can have such an amazing effect on me. We are in love, simple as that.

We are so much in love that even a second spent hugging each other feels like the best thing in the world. Just listening to music and swaying with it in the foyer, our arms and bodies entangles so much, each trying to hold on the other just a little bit harder, that we end up tripping over each other and almost falling into the picture of a spider on the wall, laughing the entire time. Laying on the couch stealing sweet kisses while our parents aren’t looking, boldly looking into each others eyes trying to tell the other with out words how much each of us means to the other.

~Every time I am around him my chest hurts because it knows that the heart that used to be there is close~ -Gabby

~All the words in the dictionary can tell exactly how I feel about him~ -Gabby

These phrases popped into my head as I was sitting on a bench, on a dock, in the rain waiting for him to come and see me. My hair was plastered to my face dripping fat water droplets onto my phone, ditsorting the picure. I couldn’t move until these thoughts were put somewhere where I could find them again. I was stuck to my seat, the rain getting harder every second, but I didn’t even notice the cold or the wetness.

I only saw the screen of my phone and the words I was trying to write on it. I am so happy to remember these phrases because maybe if he reads this and knows that I was diligently and loyally waiting for him in the poring rain for over an hour, and all I could think about was him. Maybe he will start to see exactly how much I truly care for him.