Monday, February 2, 2009


Well as I was writing that last blog there were these two girls sitting behind me at another computer, and I was typing away when all of the sudden one of them loudly states that some guy they were talking about was going to jail. Then the other one states just as loudly that she is going to add him as a friend on facebook. Now I think they just wanted everyone to know that they know him. I mean they wanted everyone in the room to hear. They were speaking almost as if they were talking to the ENTIRE room. It was really obnoxious.

Now I have no problems with talking about things like that in a public space. But that was simply disrespectful. And if anyone agrees with me or even reads this and disagrees. Please tell me your thoughts as to why you think this or that.


Lately I have been having a lot of stress directed towards me because of a debt that I have. I also have no job so it takes a really long time for me to earn anything.
My anxiety problems are acting up as well it is really hard for me not to freak out. And all of this is causing physical problems for me as well. It is really hard. I wish there was a way for me to get out of this. I haven't been able to do any writing lately because of my college classes. I have a computer class that seems pointless to me. I wish they had a test to see if you knew how to use a computer. Then if you got a certain score then you wouldn't have to take the class. Because I think that it is pointless and a waste of money to take that class if you know everything in it.
I have my psychiatrist appointment today and I am going to try and see if I can go and ask him a bunch of questions and see if I can get to a point where I don't need him anymore. Or I can at least get a better medication for my anxiety. I really don't know what I am going to do if I can't see my boyfriend.

I for got to mention. I am grounded. I think I will be for about a month. It is a long story, and one that I would rather not go into on a public site. But the gyste of it is that I am grounded and I can only see my boyfriend during classes. It really sucks because he can help me calm down and relax whenever I need to. I will try my best to make it through this time. But it is REALLY hard.